A Recurring Dream

For quite some time now, I have been having this recurring dream. In the dream, I found myself having an urgent need to go to a faraway place. All I really need to do was to get myself to the bus station (sometimes the jeepney or the tricycle one), then I would be on my happy way to wherever it was I was planning on going. But every time I started walking to the station, my feet began to feel very heavy, I could feel my pace slackening, and I literally had to drag my legs like I'm trying to pull some heavy metal object attached to myself. I would eventually reach the station and then I would wake up. But sometimes, I wouldn't even reach the station at all.


We've all have had recurring dreams. And just like everyone else, I also get those pretty common ones like finding yourself falling from a high place, or naked in public, or having your teeth fall off. It's no wonder that throughout the ages, men have attributed a lot of mysticism and hidden meanings to dreams, believing that they could be a link to the soul world or else a premonition of things to come. I myself used to do this. And it came to a point that it caused so much serious mental drama, I trained myself to just forget about my dreams as soon as I wake up and try to focus instead on what's real and the stuff that I need to do during the day. It may have been difficult at first but as the stress level went down, I became used to doing it and liked it.

But being naturally curious, and having being lately pestered by these dreams against my will, I decided to cut myself some slack and decided to do a little internet 'research' on what my dream could mean. I'm definitely not doing this just so I could raise my anxiety level once again, hell no. But since it has been pointed out by psychologists like Jung and Freud that dreams are products of our own subconscious, hence of things that are within our own psyche, then perhaps there is a way for me to find some rational explanation on what my subconscious self was trying to tell me.

Surprisingly, there isn't a lot of articles discussing dreams about walking, most are focused on the usual onese like teeth and nakedness. But I eventually found one and it asked me to try to remember several aspects of my dream. Was the walk difficult or not? Where was I walking to? The difficulty of the walk seems to indicate how efficiently the dreamer maneuvers and progresses through his own personal life journey. While the presence or lack of a destination seems to indicate if the person knows what he is trying to achieve or if he is still in the process of searching for it.

Trying to apply what the article suggested, it would seem that at this point in my life, I already do know where it is want to go and what it is I want. But sadly it would seem that in the process of trying to reach my goal, I am finding myself in quite a struggle, barely reaching what it is I'm trying to get to and maybe sometimes not reaching it at all.

Quite frankly, I don't really need a dream to tell me this. I already knew about this and have been trying everyday to do my best to achieve my goals. Could it just be that my subconscious was getting impatient? Or was it just telling me that I'm taking way too long and wasting a lot of time? Perhaps the dream was nothing but a manifestation of my own frustrations, trying to knock some sense into me and reach me while my conscious defenses are down.

But whatever my dream was telling me, I know what it is I have to do: to keep moving forward in life no matter how hard the road is and how difficult the situation might be. The dream might have been interesting enough to make me want to explore its meaning and subject myself again to another mental torture. But in the end, the dream was just that - a dream and nothing more.

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